What have I donne?

¿En qué me metí?

What the hell I have done to you? To him? To me?

Afff... mi estado mental no es el mejor para poder sobrellevar todo esto, tengo que detenerme para analizar con calma... ¿Impulsos? Son lo peor.

Maléfice.-

¿Ana y Mia?

Bajé de peso, y me han preguntado si vomito. No, no lo hago, cuando lo intenté no lo logré y no lo he vuelto a hacer. Me preguntan si he dejado de comer; no, no he dejado de comer, pero cuando puedo me salto las comidas, o como muy poco. Cuando puedo solamente... Aveces necesito comer, o me me pongo ansiosa y no lo puedo evitar. Estos comportamientos bastan para decir que no tengo problemas de anorexia, ni bulimia.

Y eso :)

Pero amo sentirme flaca por saltarme comidas.

Maléfice

Mierdas.

Mis viejos me cacharon anoche. Peleamos, seguido de un discurso muy bullshit de "ya pasamos por esto, no usas las herramientas que tienes, tenemos que ayudarnos entre todos".

Ellos jamás me ayudaron, me ayudaron la psicóloga y las pastillas. Visto de ese modo, me ayudaron con el financiamiento. Bleh, estúpida plata.

Filo, anoche fue una mierda. Todos tenían algo que recriminarme. Amigos, desconocidos, aff...

Filo, en otras noticias, las únicas que me alegraron:

Estoy pesando 63 :) Voy bajando.

Maléfice

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YOU WAS NEVER HERE

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you.

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O esas, o no estas, deja de desaparecer.

I'm just a stranger.

If I'm a bad person, You don't like me. I guess I'll go, Make my own way. It's a circle, A mean cycle. I can't excite you anymore. Where's your gavel, your jury? What's my offense this time? You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me, Well sentence me to another life. Don't wanna hear your sad songs. I don't wanna feel your pain, When you swear it's all my fault. Cause you know we're not the same. Oh we're not the same, The friends who stuck together. We wrote our names in blood, But I guess you can't accept that the change is good, It's good. You treat me just like another stranger. Well it's nice to meet you sir. I guess I'll go. I best be on my way out. Ignorance is your new best friend. This is the best thing that could've happened. Any longer and I wouldn't have made it. It's not a war. No, it's not a rapture. I'm just a person, but you can't take it, The same tricks that once fooled me. They won't get you anywhere. I'm not the same kid from your memory. Now I can fend for myself. You treat me just like another stranger. Well it's nice to meet you sir. I guess I'll go. I best be on my way out.

Sick.

Seems so far
That I have gone down this road
Only to find that it ends
But lookin' back
There is one thing that I know
I can't make it all alone again

'Cause im too weak to stand on my own
But all I need is you

So lead me
Guide me
Hold me
Hide me in love
With all that you are
and all that you do

Hear me
Take me
Mold me
Break me, oh God
Just fill all of me
As I fall Into you

Just catch me as I fall
But all this time
I have felt so alone
losing myself in my despair
With loving arms
You were waiting for me to let go
With every step
You were there

'Cause I'm too weak to stand on my own
When all i need is you

Why do I feel so empty?

Why do I fell that no one cares about me?

There's nobody to me say that he love's me,

with that kind of voice that makes you feel so right...

I feel like a fucking trash.

Malefice

Vacía y sola.

I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
so much more
I lay dying
and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

I want to die!!!

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will I be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide.

Instinto suicida.

No soy la única.

Eso confirma que todas volvemos a caer en lo mismo... por la mierda.

Depresiva genérica.